It's May, the 5th month of the year. How time flies huh. 2mre days to my birdday, when I'll turn 15. HAPPYBIRTHDAY IN ADVANCE TO MYSELF.
Oh well, exam is over. I know very well I didnt put in much efforts, so I dont really expect a good result. However, next year I must no longer sustain such character. I'll be taking my N levels, a very important examination for me. If I were to fail, i can just pack up my bag and go to ITE. Which I never wanted to go..
Friends? They come and goes. I've lost certain of my good and long friends. Yes, today, I'm going to talk about how I loses my friends.
First of all. Impression is the key. I felt that impression holds a strong importance. People judges you, humilates or even criticise if you aren't a good example. Then your going to feel uneasy of the comments people gave and fight back for yourself which will lead to conflicts, troubles, stress, & etc. In the end, nothing will turn out good. Instead, even after patching up, you might find it close to impossible to bring back the closeness with your friend like how it used to be.
Whilst for me, @ times I do care about how people thinks about me. Especially for those who tends to look down or despise me, I'll prove them wrong.
Never interfere about other people's relationship. Yeah, even if your just trying to help them, avoid doing so. Console your friend or give some basic advices will do. Because you'll end up like me getting myself into trouble. I shall not elaborate about that because I wish to keep it personal. But I wish to express my feelings here, which I am truly guilty and feel bad about it. It's haunting me, when I see them I do not have the courage to face them. I did the first wrong step, which I trust a girl too easily and told her something when I just got to know her for days. In fact, I dont know her well yet. I didn't know she couldn't take such blow and hurt herself physically. Nobody trusts me. They even thought I did that to hurt the girl. Yes, I could understand, I am truly at fault for telling her. I did that because, I just dont want her to be kept in the dark. I am too foolish. I admitted my mistake but I was not forgiven. Worst still, some of my friends starts to hate me. Things will never be back to normal again, never ever.. I wish them all the best.
When things don't turn out GOOD, both couple will put the blame on you. Even if things turn out well, they will just thank you, thats all and nothing else more. Best is not to take the risk, let them handle themselves.. It's fate that will bring them back together and not you..
Control your anger.. I've one friend who loves to.. I dont know how to put them in words. Perhaps, agitate? Yeah, agitate me. I am a straight forward person and I dont really keep things in my heart. So that friend of mine, agitates me often. Sometimes I know it might joking, but I dont know when it was and when it wasnt. So @ times i would argue and agitates back. That's where our conflict might began.. If you can, try to control your anger, let them say all they want as long one day they stopped, everything will be over.. Friends are important, besides family. When you've got nobody to turn to, some friends never fails to be your listening ear. If you were to lose your good friend, try to savage the friendship.
LOL ok I'm getting tired of elaborating about friendship stuff.
I'm flying to Cambodia next Sunday, which will be the first time in my life to do charity work? I'll be going for 5 days and 4 nights. Hopefully everything turns out to be fine, most importantly it is FUN AND MEMORABLE. BON VOTAGE to all my fellow friends from 3A1 AND 3A3 who will be flying later in the afternoon to VIETNAM. Do have fun and take care of yourself.
Worst of all, I lose my packing list. I think I am the only one that doesn't owns one right now @ this moment, oh dear better get it asap.